Oh man. I think I kind of forgot I have a blog. Twitter and Facebook have basically all but replaced my blogging tendencies over the past few months and, frankly, I've been so preoccupied living life that I haven't really had a moment to sit down and share life with you all (unless I'm actually sharing life with you in the "real" world - in which case, THANK YOU!).
Where do I begin... Two entire months have gone by since the last blog entry and so much has happened, but so little has changed. Biz is good. Weight loss continues (slowly but steadily), still not dating and still not completely settled on a new place to live/work. But even without monumental change from the outsider perspective (or just the structural reality of my life) there has been nothing BUT change internally.
I am finally feeling all of my feelings. Not running away. Not avoiding. Feeling the good, the bad and the in between. Trying to face my fears and overcome obstacles. Taking care of myself and, as a result, having an easier time taking care of those I love. Being social, being outlandish, being true.
And, it's been amazing.
I am more optimistic and excited about my future than I have ever been. I am no longer living with concern for what might be or what isn't. Instead, I am grateful - beyond words - for what I DO have. I have my family of birth and my family of choice (goddaughters, etc.). I have my health. I have my friends- SO many amazing friends. I have New York. I have the arts. I have sunshine and rain. I have laughter. I have anxiety. I have it all. And I have the good fortune of knowing that the future will be what it will be and I can't live in fear of the unknown.
I am the luckiest.
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